This morning I was remembering a very dark evening. I have suffered with a severe anxiety disorder for several years now, and also bipolar disorder. But I won't go into detail about that.
Maybe another day.
Today I'm remembering this one particularly awful night. I felt completely hopeless, as though I couldn't find any reason for my exsistence. As I prayed that evening, the Lord gave to me hope. Hope that not every night would be this hard. Hope that He would bring me through any difficulty I would face. Hope that His strength and love would be sufficient in my weakness. That evening I wrote Hope Whispers. My prayer is that it will remind others when they are struggling, that if we are still enough we can hear the whisper of Hope.
Hope whispers.
Night surrounds, darkness is deep
Thoughts are racing, no rest or sleep
Peace eludes and waits afar
No tranquility in the reservoir
Yet in the distance, hear the sound
A faint whisper of hope is found
Voice is heard, though soft may be
Speaking words so quietly
Hold on now, hold on tight
Hold on to me throughout this night
Morning's love will bring the light
Hold on now hold on tight
Tears are falling as a torrent
life itself seems abhorrent
famine, sorrow, desolation
where is hope where is salvation
In this darkness black and bleak
No words can adequately speak
About the absence of the light
This impenetrable night
Yet in the distance, ever nearer
Hope is speaking, slightly clearer
Voice is heard with growing clarity
Whispering with familiarity
Hold on now, hold on tight
Hold on to me throughout this night
Morning's love will bring the light
Hold on now hold on tight
Sorrow, laughter like the tide
On the crest of waves they ride
Ebbing flowing each new day
Keeps the heart's response at bay
At gloaming, it will then begin
The battle raging from within
Equanimity lost in night
Searching, grasping for some light
Yet not far off a sound is heard
Desperation is deferred
By the love hope's portraying
In the words it is now saying
Hold on now, hold on tight
Hold on to me throughout this night
Morning's love will bring the light
Hold on now hold on tight
Ever closer hope approaches
Black of night hope encroaches
Dispelling darkness of the night
Beam by beam of love's great light
Bursting through the hopeless hollow
Illuminating the way to follow
The path to love, now in sight
Darkness driven out by light
When darkness comes this way once more
When despair washes up to shore
Hope is never far behind
Whispering words into the mind
Hope's arms surround, hands cup the face
To turn toward the sky of grace
Turn to the One true Light above
Whose voice is whispering with love
Hold on now, hold on tight
Hold on to me throughout this night
Morning's love will bring the light
Hold on now hold on tight
