Very recently someone I love very much passed away. While I rejoice that she is no longer in pain, I miss her terribly.
She was a mom to me.
Years ago she took me into her family and cared for me. There was never a time when I needed her that she was not there. She considered me a part of her family and I considered her a part of mine.
In an attempt to grieve her loss, I've written about a few ways she has touched my life.
I love you mama.
Forever and for always.
She was a mom to me.
Years ago she took me into her family and cared for me. There was never a time when I needed her that she was not there. She considered me a part of her family and I considered her a part of mine.
In an attempt to grieve her loss, I've written about a few ways she has touched my life.
I love you mama.
Forever and for always.
Today
(written for Mama Paula)
Today I remember the first time we met
The first time I really saw you
The first time I met you as mama, I guess
The first time I experienced your love
You were sitting in a chair waiting for me
Waiting until the prayers were through
Waiting until I dried my face
Waiting to ask me to come home with you
When we came to your home, you held me
You held me while I cried
You held me while I yelled
You held me even while I slept
The next morning you made me breakfast
You made me malt o meal
You made me coffee and toast
You made me feel welcome and loved
From that day forward things had changed
Changed because you were always there to talk to me
Changed because you were always there to hold me
Changed because you were always there to love me
Today I remember the long nights you stayed awake
Stayed awake to rock me while I cried
Stayed awake to listen to me pour out my heart
Stayed awake to pray
You endured my self destruction and covered me
Covered me with faithfulness
Covered me with hope
Covered me with love
You looked not at me, but through me with your eyes
Your eyes that saw my pain
Your eyes that saw my longing
Your eyes that saw my potential
You poured out your life into mine
Your hope into my heart
Your faith into my soul
Your love into my whole being
Today I remember all you have been to me
All you have given
All you have taught
All you have told me
Today I remember your faith
Faith to weather any storm
Faith to know God is holding you
Faith to never give up
Today I remember the first day we met
Today I remember the last time I kissed you goodbye
Today I promise to never forget what you've taught me
Today I promise to keep your love in my heart for ever and for always
Kim Jenne
8/2010
That is absolutely beautiful...I am sorry for your loss.
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Thank you! She was such a special lady!
ReplyDeletehow have I never read this? So, so beautiful Kim! I know you miss her so much, so do I. This is an amazing testimony to everything that Paula was, and her big, big faith in God. love ya.
ReplyDeleteMama Kim,
ReplyDeleteYour sweet words summed up all that was grandma Paula. Everyday I miss her laughter, her kind and very wise words, laying in bed talking endlessly about nothing, and also being held and rocked by her. She had such a God filled spirit and an unconditional love and heart after Jesus' own. Everyday I pass places or see something that is a reminder of her and all of the fun she brought to my life that can never be replaced. Thank you for writing and sharing this with us. You are a true blessing to so many and were (and still are!) to her as well!
Thank you ladies for your comments. She was an amazing woman of faith. I miss all those things you listed too Ash. I am so grateful to have had her in my life. We are better people today because of her. Love you girls!
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