I mean it.
I'm glad it's over and even more glad that it's never coming back.
Good riddance evil week.
What made this past week so awful, you ask? Well, nothing in particular.
Just your garden variety of disappointments, pressures, frustrations, unpleasant surprises, things I
In short- life.
As I was driving today an old song from my CD started playing.
Come, ye weary, heavy laden, lost and ruined by the fall,
If you tarry 'til you're better, you will never come at all.
Come, ye sinner, poor and needy, weak and wounded, sick and sore,
Jesus ready stands to save you, full of pity, love, and power.
Oh yes, this is the song I needed.
I have been so weary with the busy nature of our lives. I have been heavy laden with the pressures of schooling and parenting the children. I have fallen out of grace and become lost due to my lack of understanding concerning some situations.
I considered praying about it. But I didn't think these were big enough problems to take to Jesus. I could probably handle these little things.
I thought I could shake it off.
Pull myself together.
Stop, drop and roll or something.
It was like I was saying, "No, that's OK God, I got this."
Only I didn't.
Not at all.
I am starting to realize that if I wait until I am better-until I can fix those things that are bothering me- to come to the Lord, I am never going to go to Him at all.
After this week, I'm feeling weak and wounded, sick and sore. I would really like to just go lay down in a large hole and cover myself.
Hide myself away from everyone and everything.
I have found myself in desperate need of the saving power and love of Jesus.
So I sang along with the chorus, and starting to think that putting these words into practice might just be a good idea. I also started to think that maybe-just maybe-God was trying to tell me something through this song.
I will arise and go to Jesus, he will embrace me in his arms
In the arms of my dear saviour, oh, there are ten thousand charms.
I wonder if there are any others who-like me- allow all those "little things" we think we can handle to pile up until we are crushed under the weight of them.
Maybe I'm the only one.
I kinda doubt it though.
Maybe you feel like you can't come to Jesus with a particular thing.
Maybe you think it's too insignificant.
Maybe you think it's too shameful.
Maybe you think there is no solution.
Maybe a lot of reasons.
But you can arise and go to Jesus and He will embrace you in His arms.
Nothing is too impossible or too insignificant or too anything in between for Him to care about.
I Peter 5:7
Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.
So, here I go...
*lyrics are from
I will arise and go to Jesus
written by Joseph Hart
Hi luv!
ReplyDeleteI wish I was closer to sit and share a pot of coffee and share all of the treasures the Holy Spirit is unearthing in our lives. I have been experiencing such an intense season of awakening and freedom, I just want everyone I see to walk in it with me! :-) One of the sweet things he has helped me understand is that our greatest strength is recognizing our utter desperation for Him. every minute. every breath. desperate, yet free. It is inside of the desperation and complete surrender that I am finding the deepest liberty. One other thing I wanted to share with you is found in Isaiah 1:18-19:
"Come now, let us reason this out," says the Lord. 'No matter how deep the stain of your sins, I can remove it. I can make you as clean as freshly fallen snow. Even if you are stained as red as crimson, I can make you as white as wool. If you will only obey me and let me help you..."
"Reason" also means "argue" - He is saying to us, let's wrestle these things out - every last detail of your life. Our God is a God of relationship - He just longs for us to talk to Him, about anything, everything! This passage has brought great release into my life, I pray it comforts you as well sweet friend. I do hope we can share that pot of coffee sometime soon, this side of heaven!
Oh I wish you were closer too! I love what you wrote about Isaiah 1:18-19. I've heard that verse my whole life over and over and just have never looked at in the way you did. Thank you for taking the time to share that with me.
ReplyDeleteI hope to have that coffee with you one day :)
Hey Sweetie, Thanks for sharing your heart. I could tell the last week that you were struggling and I have been praying for you. I should have reached out and held you but I was afraid of intruding, plus I know that when I am in that place all it takes is someone to hug me and I fall to pieces. Then the Lord reminded me that sometimes falling to pieces in a friend's arms is exactly what we need. I apologize for missing the opportunity to be there for you. I promise to do better next time. Love you.
ReplyDeleteNo apology necessary Cindi, but thank you :) I know your arms are always ready should I need to crumble in them ;) Thank you for praying. Love you!
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