Trying to find time to write is difficult. Finding time to write this week-impossible.
Hubby's been on vacation this past week. This means that we have been spending our week having some much needed family-focus time and doing lots of family activities. We didn't travel too far from home, but we crammed lots of activity into 5 short days.
Whew, I'm exhausted! and there are still two very full days ahead of me.
Yesterday we all went to Cedar Point. Cedar Point is an amazing amusement park filled with a variety of rides, games, and
I, however, have Panic disorder. Trips like these often send me into a hyper-ventilating mess of tears and frustration. I find myself in an irrational state and am unable to think clearly or calm down. What's worse, I think, is that I know I'm irrational, but am still not able to "snap out of it" so to speak. Thankfully, I have Mama(my mom in law) to talk me down from the ledge on a regular basis, and really good medication or I'd never go anywhere! For Those of you who have suffered from anxiety disorders and panic attacks, you know what I'm talking about. Those of you who have not, be grateful. They suck.
So, in preparation for our Cedar Point trip, I made sure I had proper medication and I also called in "the big guns" (i.e. called my Mama to pray-a lot-for our day).
The day went well, in spite of the fact that we left our lunches at home. Yup. All that preparation in making the best lunches ever were for nothing. I had the best lunches and snacks ready, and several bottles of refreshing water-some of which I froze to keep the rest cold all ready to go. *sigh* We realized we left it at home when we pulled into the Cedar Point parking lot and went to grab the bag. It was then I realized that I was going to have to
It was still a great day! I was only anxious a few
It really was a good day.
Hubby's niece purchased her dream souvenir-a large cup in the shape of Snoopy. My sis-in-law enjoyed some frozen custard(a favorite treat of hers). My oldest Darling went on her first "big" coaster with her daddy. My sweet pea went on a few smaller coaster rides, and my last little guy rode his first "kiddie" coaster. Hubby got his chocolate covered frozen banana and I got a key chain with my last little guy and I on a roller coaster.
I'm thankful for the prayers, because God really was gracious to our family yesterday. And in my weakness of anxiety and panic, His strength in me was strong.
In the grand scope of life, having a panic free day at Cedar Point isn't by far the most important thing perhaps. But having a panic free day at Cedar Point to make happy memories with my family is important to me. God showing His grace and help to me in such a seemingly small thing shows me that He cares about those things that concern me, even if they are not mountain moving, earth shaking things.
So friends, I hope that you also will seek God in everything you do. Not only praying for the "big things" or "grand ideas", not only watching for His hand in the larger scale activities of your life, but in everything. For sometimes it is those little moments, where you smile when you would otherwise be afraid, that you find God really is ever present with His children.
Thanks for reading.
awww...I love the keychain picture!! That is so freakin' cute! I am so glad that you guys had an awesome time, making memories is what it's all about. Praise God that your panic was manageable.:) love you, maybe we'll see you at the race tomorrow. I fully plan on dying in the 84 degree heat. :) ⁄
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comment Heather! I'm hoping that since the race is early it won't be too terribly hot. I'd be awfully upset if you died at the race, change that plan would ya? ;) love you!
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